Later

You're not the worst, and you don't owe us an apology. I cannot imagine what you must have gone through, and I hope there are many bright days in your future. You are funny and smart and kind, and I looked forward to your posts on the forum, as well as goofing off with you in the Skype group.

I sincerely hope you feel better. Good luck, wherever you go.

Yeah, you are definitely not the worst. This place is nice, but the real world is much more important, and I'm really sorry to hear all of this. You are just fine the way you are...truly. And while I may be new here, and you probably never heard of me...I still think your a very good person, don't say your the worst or My talents are ruining everything. I don't believe that is true at all. You are great, and you leaving won't change that, ever. Other people left, and you leaving is just as fine. And I bet everyone here feels the same. Please don't be so hard on yourself, it will be ok

Your the best, and I wish you luck! 

Rha, I don't know if you're going to come back and read any of this, but I'll say my piece in case you do.

...Except I don't totally know what to say. There's evidently a lot going on that is none of my business, and I get that.

I hope whatever's going on in your life and/or in your head starts to clear up, I hope you reach a point where you don't feel compelled to kill yourself before it's too late, maybe with something that really drives you and makes you even eager to see things out to the bitter end. I hope that when you reach that point, nobody feels the need to shove any sort of medication down your throat that you aren't asking for. For you to be missing as a part of this site and the experience is a noticeable loss, but at this point, in the grand scheme of things, I could care fucking less. It may sound sappy to say, but I was really damn worried for the last few weeks, and it gave me enough perspective for that.

You don't seem to think that highly of yourself, but I think damn highly of you, and I believe you have the potential to live any kind of life you want to. For the brief period I've known you, "some person from that fetish site I dare not tell anyone about" had a much greater, and positive, impact on my life than I would like to admit.

Sorry for the wall of text, and I really do hope you take care of yourself. Ciao.